First Love Not Forgotten

I sit by the window sill
Looking out to the full moon
And my whole heart tells me the same thing
That you were it
You were my one
And I let you slip right through my fingers
When I met you I just wasn’t ready
And now I live with the regret
Of knowing I had my soulmate
I got to hold you for the few times we had
I got to kiss you with the pure innocence I had
Would you even want me now?
Torn and battered
My heart is aching for u
Everytime you asked me I said no
I wasn’t ready for you
I was too young
Too naïve
And now you are too many miles away
I cant hold you anymore
I miss everything about u
The way u smelt of smoke and my favourite cologne
The way you felt under my hands
Skin so soft yet so strong and gentle
And you know I still love you
Even though I had moved on
I moved away and led a new life
And you still held on
But fear holds me back
I wish I could go back to the day you knelt before me
And asked me that life changing question
My answer might have been yes….