I always knew it was too good to be true,
and now I’m left to watch my life
slowly crumble—disintegrating before
my very eyes; which quiver—filled
to the brim with sweet tears of sorrow.
I know what you want from me,
and it’s not love—you care nothing
for my heart; ‘tis simply an annoyance.
Yet I gaze upon your face at night,
lying next to you (clinging to your body)
and despise myself all the more
for my weakness and frailty of spirit.
I search you for signs that you care,
but am unable to hear any truth
in the words that you speak to me—
dripping from your mouth and
poisoning me, sapping my strength.
I yearn for a day when I can break free
of your hold on me, break free of your
decadent and tempting words—lies
to bring me closer…to break me.
You can cage me for now, yet someday
I will break free of your chains:
you cannot hold me forever, my friend.
Author notes
Whatever..more shit from me..bleh. It's pretty much true though, so whatever...if you know me, you probably know what I'm talking about. I've realized many things about myself recently..one of them being that even when I know people are using me, I still choose to hang out with them or whatever..arg..I'm so stupid...
Written April 1st, 2004
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i liked this! it reminds me of me...and that just isn't good at all! keep up the good work! awesome right!
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Yes..all my writings come from the heart...I write what I feel at the time, and usually it turns out to be depressing or sad.
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A very nice poem Divinewings. I see a pattern here from the last poem of yours that I remarked upon.
I assume you speak from the heart, and if that being the case, best you get "out" and enjoy life before you explode or break down, dear. Nothing is worth wondering about someone. Either he does, or he doesn't.
Of course, though - leaving is never easy.
I enjoy your poetry, greatly. Keep writing, and keep me informed.
Edited on Apr 05, 9:56 p.m. because ''. -
Omg...yes..you understand. I wrote another poem that you'd also prolly relate to, but I don't want to post it on here for reasons that would probably become apparent once you read it (if you'd like).
And we should hang out sometime.. -
I am not sure how to put into words how much I understand the feelings behind this poem Ica. There is nothing like watching your life roll by your eyes like a bad movie you want to turn away from. Damn
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Aww..thank you..as are you
. You should enter my contest 
..lol
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Great write, simply a great write, good job! Your a good poet!
Peace
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Awesome...thanks for your comments . And I have read Asprin's Myth books, some of them anyway..yea..they're pretty cool..hehe. As for the others you mentioned, I shall check them out. Thanks!
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Time for you to find your wings again... I know the feeling though, hanging out with someone that doesn't really care about you, yet you do so because it's there... thankfully, I have since learned how to make sure that the friends I have are the ones who DO care about me and for me if needed... great write!
Oh- if you like sci-fi/fantasy books... as I can tell from your author's page (we got a lot of stuff in common, like music tastes and authors!) I'd check out Asprin's Myth books (a humorous twist on the old chestnuts) and Anthony's Xanth series along with his Apprentice Adept series... both are equally awesome! -
Aww..thank you so much
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Hey, i know how that is. I do that too. It sucks being such a good friend, being used and you dont realize it until a while has passed...but when you have it just flat out sucks big time. Heh..this was an awesome poem. I love the feel of it, the emotion, and the way it came out, great write ^_^
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Yea..I know what you mean. And thank you for your comments . I'll be by shortly to check out your work
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we have the same weakness, but hey. whats to lose? i already lost everything... thats why i write.
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Aww..thank you for your kind words and applause
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LOVELY! I cannot tell you how often I've been so emotionally trapped without the will to do much more... You word it just as it is, the feeling is definitely there for me. WONDERFUL job!
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I am stupid, but at the same time....I don't know. I like hanging out with him and whatnot because it makes me feel like someone cares about me..that..I don't know..that maybe he does really like me, even though inside I know he doesn't. Something like that I guess...I don't know Isa...I'm so confused..
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not shit ... yeah i know who you ae talking about here. and i dont think you are stupid either. no matter what wierd decisions you make, i will still be here for you. But i think you need to stop hanging out with him. I can see that is already bothering you, it wont get any better until you set things straight with him. I love you
-Isa
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