The Poetic Ramblings of A Disoriented Mind

Anger trickled into my marrow
Grief and stress from a moment long past
That still lingers in my confused mind
And consumes all thought as long as it lasts

And soon I am aware
That swiftly have the years flown by
An alien within a foreign land
Who trods upon unfamiliar sands

My peers have changed and their interests too
Thin has grown the social glue
Where to start? Where to begin?
Could I, will I ever start again?

Within a labyrinth of defensive walls
And behind a guise that hides 'hind my eyes
Sarcastic remarks and awkward stalls
Unable to speak, unable to express

Along the fringes I walk the void
Where romance and peace are devoid
Observing the happy pairs walk hand-in-hand
Never a participant, only a viewer

And before mine eyes I spy a girl
And quickly am I overwhelmed with innocent emotion
They prompt me, coax me to devotion
Her beautiful face, her curving bust

I want to run my fingers through her hair
And meet my immaculate lips with hers
And throw away my many cares
And happy bliss would between us shared

I spring forward but soon I am stalled
By the likes of a thin but firm glass wall
My hands try to touch and feel hers
But to no avail, I can go no further

I have no choice but to allow her to leave my sight
I try not to weep with all my might
What should lead to the warmth of caressing light
I see only a dark, cold, and austere night

I try to smile and face life with a grin
The end of the road is still far away
And there are paths still awaiting trod
Push the negatives to another day