I Can't Love You Anymore

I can hold onto this no longer because I know it isn’t true
I can’t move forward with my life when all I think about is you
I cannot accept where this is going because I know it isn’t real
I also can’t deny what is true, what is here and what I feel

I cannot bear to lie to you again; I can’t continue lying to myself
I had so much faith and hope in this and hoped you couldn’t tell
That I am hiding behind a veil, and you aren’t what I want or need
I am not truly in love with you, but with who you used to be

I watched your world come crashing down right underneath your feet
I watched you lose heart and soul and then get kicked out on the street
I wanted to be your cushion for the fall you could not bear
I realize now that who I am is the one that isn’t there

I want to be the girl of your dreams that fulfills your every need
You want to be a blooming flower and I want to be your seed
But I have things that I desire and one of them is love
I want more than hope and wonder; I want to rise above

A young and naïve mind jumped into a pool of dreams
You tried to pull me up but you’re really drowning me
I cannot swim for I can’t see and I’m not getting anywhere
I can only keep from dying if I know that you’re not there

You used to be my heart, my soul, and the air that I once breathed
You’re now my hurt, my hate and the one that I deceive
You hold me back from things that I need a strong man for
You cannot be who I want you to, so I can’t love you anymore