Sick and Tired of Feeling: Sick and Tired

This is just how it looks
I'm not gonna lie, not gonna front
No stray looks in this card game,
When all faces are fixed on you
Embedded in the mind of us all
Is your ways of deceiving

Is your trait of neurosis

Why do you seek poor misfortune

Are you aware of your deception?

And I'll make this promise to you,

After all you dragged me through

You willl pay, with every penny that you've earned

Dear god, you can mark my words

Play this trick on me again

And you will find nothing in return

Once again I find myself asking questions,

As if I gave a fuck about you..

But I know that can't be true

For I don't  like what you left me to be

I can't stand, with eyes shut, your what I see

I could've been available

As long as I was considered bearable

I could've been there

When you needed someone to cherish

Kill me now, where I stand

Kill me, where our eyes meet

Is it in you baby, to end my heartbeat?