I’m Sorry I Cry

I’m Sorry I Cry
I’m sorry but it hurts to be forgotten
It hurts more to be forgotten and not wanted any more
I’m sorry but it hurts to be forgotten
It hurts even more to know my pain means nothing to you.
For almost a year I reached out to you when the pain got to be too much.
I’m sorry it hurt when I saw nothing but your back.
I’m sorry I cry for all those who were suppose to love me
I’m sorry I got to be too much and now you don’t want me.
I’m sorry I cry when all I wanted was for you to hold me
I’m Sorry you could not ask me to stay, so I left
I’m sorry I though you did not want me
But if you did then why did you push me away?
Now you want to hate me for not being there for you when things where bad
I’m sorry but where were you when I needed you to be there for me?
I’m sorry the pain was so bad I was struggling for the will to live just one more day.
I’m sorry the pain got the best of me but I failed and woke up the next day.
I wish I had your ability to just shut off the pain.
I’m sorry the pain just won’t go away
I’m sorry that I tried to make it go away
Now I wonder – how mad would you be if I did not fail?
Or would you just think… its what she deserved.
I’m sorry I cry but I cry because the struggle is still there
What if I try again but this time I do not fail?
I’m sorry I cry because you’re not there, and now I think you never were.