You get to eat all the food you would want, and nobody would stop you.
You get to pee anywhere you want and nobody would hurt you.
You get to roam wherever you want to go to and nobody would hold.
You'd get so many hugs and kisses you've ever had from us and nobody would blame you.
It's lonely down here... and empty, quiet. But I know it's only temporary. So I shouldn't worry.
Just the feeling of being with you made my days brighter. Your beautiful eyes used to bring joy to my heart. And they were so full of unconditional love for me. And we gave you the same feeling.
Of you being there, it gave us meaning to our lives. We never knew how much you meant to us until you actually passed over and we realized that you weren't here anymore.
("Who would eat the left overs when you're gone?")
Mother and I cried so hard, while you slept forever in our arms. I wish I could've done more for you, instead I kept you company until the end. I knew you were suffering. I knew you wanted comfort by the way you cried out for me. I'd run downstairs and hold you, even if I have to smell the lingering scent of dread, you'd be happy that I was just there throughout the whole night and early morning.
("That's it. I'm sorry, sweetie. There's not much we can do.")
It was so close- so close to 8am, yet you faded quicker than the morning fog, you had to go before we were to take you to the vet and help you. We didn't care if you started to rot in our arms, we kissed you so many times before we gave you to the doctors to cremate your earthly body. And I imagined your spirit running across the Rainbow Bridge.
("He had a good life. Sebuko... that old dog...")
It hit me so hard that you actually left us, I cried harder. It was the longest, quietest morning in our lives. As we cradled you gently, all in shock.
("Pa... Pa, Sebuko... Sebuko di-")
Today we made a prayer, spreading some of your ashes in your favorite park.
We still grieve for you, Sebuko. We want you to come back, but I know you would never come back to this hellish place called earth. Where you are now, I know it is so much better than here that I envy you. But until that time when we will be reunited again, I shall think of you everyday, imagining you sitting by my leg. Looking up at me with those eyes full of love, joy, trust, forgivness.
Even if I may have hurt you, you know I didn't mean to.
There is not a day where I don't miss kissing you and hugging you so much that you may get sick of it.
I grew up with you for 10 Years, and I can NOT imagine what my life would have been without you. And I'm so glad that you were.
Sebuko: 1999- 8/4/09, 7:10am
"Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's just the transition that's troublesome." Issac Asinov
"A person who had never owned a dog missed a wonderful part of life." Bob Barker
"Dogs have a way of finding the people who need them. Filling an emptiness we don't even know we have." Thom Jones
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