I've sat here on a rocky pedestal in deep thought,
looking out at the world, searching for answers
Wondering where all my years of torment will end
Here I've sat nursing sick thoughts to offend
Playing with evil ideas to bodge, imploring death
and seeking all ways to torment my compeers
All of yesterday I've sat here plotting my remnant
writing my last note, hoping I'll be dead tomorrow,
Manifested fears killing me slow, doing my head in
transported thoughts to molest my bleeding brain
Crying in this crucible seething, ugly crimes coming
Rage of Ménière's disease killing me little by little
Here I've seen the false demon, evil one to bleed,
a mendacious creature conjuring up bad thoughts
Activating the brain into these deadly spasms,
my meningeal artery into such a maddening spin
Latest technology helps it along, delusory proposal
something science just magically had invented
Attention deficit disorder burning, a sour vision,
causing fear to seep into my uncontrollable brain
Teachers so don't understand why I am difficult,
why I won't sit down and just learn the lessons
My dumb parents think it's just a passing faze,
yet I've had it all my bloody life, if only they saw
Here in this dark place I've sat, crying for action
and waiting for fate to take me back home
Back to the land of the dead, the very nothing
a place where pain has no meaning or phonation
That is where I'm heading soon, this place so dark
and in this very lonely dark place I'll sleep at last
In life I've fought, punished and racked my peers,
so why should they suffer over my foolishness?
Truly to the purple ones, truly I am better off dead,
than the world could go on living and be free of me
That place where I sat yesterday, it bled my eyes,
for there I thought about killing all the silly kids
raping even some girls so venal I thought about too,
and blowing up my dumb school after the storm
So before tomorrow comes, before the new dawn,
I've decided to die before I do something stupid
For I know if I live people surely will die hereafter,
such awful ways they would have all died too
Death by gunshot, death by fire, death by jumping
and even stabbings if I should get close enough
All this I theorised while thinking about the futurity,
only to chicken out on my actions at the last minute
Yes I've sat here and fully agnised over all of this drag,
and I've resolved to just die before tomorrow comes
Author notes
If only kids who are suffering inside could have somewhere to go, seek help before it's too late. Than perhaps lives would not be lost in crazy suicide missions.
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This is though very painful but very true that there are certain days when you do not wish to see a tomorrow.But here tomorrow comes again and again to teach you the lessons to live.Great flow of thoughts.
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Oh wow
it's reall really good wow
totally wow
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Wow!!! I like yours so much better! This so describes how I feel. Come get me before tomorrow and take me along ok? WoW. Freaking awesome!!
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incredible, you take this idea, one that i write about all the time, having these feelings, going to a quiet place in the middle of nowhere
And just totally beat out anything i've written like that. Your imagery puts you in that place you feel those emotions. Nothing is good, your home is dead, your parents know not who you are. Society (school) a desolate wasteland, where your thoughts dwell on evil things. Dude really you have a way with words, so powerfull
" truly I am better of dead" i dunno if you meant to put off instead
But, this is just a wonderfull write thank you
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This is just another awesome, layer upon layer of yummy scrummy mind blowing goodness....you have such depth such raw gut cheese wire on nerves talent...you blow me away
catch a hug big guy
T
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Wow this is awesome.. really strong message and truthful
I like long writes a lot of stuff entered in my contests are like 30 words
Thank you so much for entering my contest and Good luck 
-♥Amy♥
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