What do I have to do to make you love me?
What do I have to do to make you care?
I'm so scared one day I'm going to wake up
And your not going to be here anymore
I don't know what hurts more
The fact that we go to bed together
Or we wake up alone
It seems like nothing I do is right anymore
I can't even look at myself in the mirror
I'm so ashamed of what is staring back
I need relief from this pain
I feel so alone even though your right here
My chest hurts constantly
I walk on eggshells afraid to upset you
And you don't even see it
It's almost like you don't even care anymore
I'm crying out for you, your help
It's so lonely down here, at rock bottom
I want to drown myself in the bottle
But I know it's only going to make it worse
Your not here anymore, at all
It's like I'm in this thing alone again
Hold me now, I need to feel complete
Like I matter to you, like I'm your one and only again
I don't feel that from you anymore
I suppose it's my fault, it always is
I don't know what to do anymore
I want to make things better so bad
But I'm scared it's all for a pointless goal
Like all the hard work is for something
That will cease to exist when I leave
So I guess I will wait here, alone
And hope to God you will catch me when I fall
comments would be most appreciated!
Comments
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Such a heart felt write .
I have lived this life for many years and know this lonelines s far too well . But I held on and in doing so and never giving up today our love is stronger than it had ever been .
For like a rose bud is such the marriage yet the rose bud holds no aroma anew .But let age come to the rose bud and it opens fully the scent of heaven overcomes the view .
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awww this is sooo deep..soo awsum..sad..i lovvv the style n the emotion at each line..
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thank you! yes, it truly is a desperate time when your in a position like this. But I left this open hoping that he would read it....and he did. And EVERYTHING changed. His whole demeanor changed and now it's like we first started dating again. Giggly and happy....No more fighting at all! But thank you for the comment and keep reading! I like to know someone is answering my calls!
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Wow..... That is so powerful and raw. 0.0
The flow is really good.
I'm not much of a free write fan....but this just hit home.
I know what it is like to be in this position. It hurts and all you want to do is tell them and be held but they don't seem to even see that you are hurting.....
I dunno. Wonderful poem. Keep writing!!
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