Causes Unknown

Day by day...I watch you change.
I can taste the sickness behind your lips,
I can sense the confusion in your churning mind.
Even as you exhale, its a harsh and hateful sigh
Punctuating a wordless declamation

Against the obvious bitterness you exude,
So symptomatic of the fatigued and defeated.
Everyday we are bloody and our bones are often broken
Bruised all over our bodies and we don't even know why...
We can hardly stand on our own two feet
And the dependency makes you suicidal...

If nothing else, you remain here only
Out of spite against the unknown enemy
Who walks with you and kills you slowly.
The muscles are gone and what is left of you?
A pale white child with an old woman's eyes...
Her expression is vague but deep inside

Grows a vast contempt for an anonymous reaper....
Don't we ever wish for that fair fight.....
But the diagnosis sheet tells us no useful tales
And we lose these days of our youth to the calendar

And no one knows and no one sees
Because no one can believe in the invisible wheelchair
You can't fight it when you can't seek it out...

I'm so tired and I can't breathe
Maybe this next breath will set me free
Maybe my heart will burst open
And bleed within me
And maybe then I'll know the reasons why
But no one knows.....

....Another year has gone by.
I already feel like I am no longer alive
You can't trust the EKG because its telling you lies
If I'm still here I can't have already died....
So why....

Weaker yet...it gets harder to stand
The paralyzing numbness wars against exploding pain
An anonymous killer with an anonymous name