This Boy's In Love

leaving’s easy.
goodbyes
are not.


so when you said
“I’m leaving”
I could not
react
and you asked
if I was
okay
and I said
no.
you had the easy part
and I was stuck
saying goodbye.

and now you’re
gone
and I’m alone.


but you would not leave me
                                                                        (auras remain
                                                                                    clear
                                                                  even in absence)


I cried today
when I saw your
scrunchie
sitting by the bathroom
mirror
the purple one you wore when you were
down on luck
because it’s the one
you were wearing
when we
met.
how could you
            leave that
                    behind?
                                                                    (how could you
                                                                              leave me
                                                                              behind?)


and I wept when I saw your
library card
sitting in the trash
you don’t need it
anymore
but you could have
kept it
as a reminder of
            what you’ve left
                              behind

                                                              (I can’t believe I’ve
                                                                              been left
                                                                                behind)



and I wanted to
call you
and tell how much I
miss you
but it’s only been
a day
and I
have to be stronger than this
but I don’t think I’m
strong enough
to forget

or move on.


                                                                (you’ll forever live
                                                                          in my heart
                                              even when we’re thousands of
                                                                          miles apart)