guilt free?

red rain drips down from my stained hands
falling downwards on the rotting floor
each  copper droplet echoing in the blank room
night's creeping shadow crawls in
moonlight creates a shallow spot light on me
there's no turning back
intimidating eyes appear in every dark corner
watching, taunting
waiting for my me to go...
snap
losing all my sense of control
and chip away my blank expression
then breakdown into guilty pieces
giving away my dark little secret
.........
ha
ha..hahaha
but i fooled them
for i'll hide from the constant stares
and block out the gut-wrenching screams
the screams that make me squirm and itch
the screams that won't go away
playing like a broken record in my head
over and over and over
and that face, that sobbing face
everyone's staring, closing me in
into that dark corner
with the trigger pulled back
to the place where my heart once was
1-2-3
*click**click*
..........