Sweetened Can of Condensed Craziness.

Being with you only for a weekend
has me turned me into a
Sweetened can of condensed craziness.
Before that it was a few emails,
texts here and there
and a phone call or two.
All do able absolutely no worries.

That was then this is now…

Can this be healthy?
Am I in my right mind?
I just don’t know what to do
I find myself falling in love
I’m falling in love with you.
I want to make time for you
I want to do all kinds of unselfish things
I want to believe in my fellow man
Spread words of good where ever I can.
What has happened to me?
This craziness of these emotions makes me emotional.
Not knowing really what to do
I try to stand still
Thinking that this action of nothingness
might slow down the self inflicted turmoil I’ve gotten into;
How to act?
When not to act?
Am I too eager?
Don’t use the “L” word too soon,
If ever at all.
Wear the right clothes, the perfect lipstick
Perfume that will give you an erection from one inhale
From the sensual curve of my neck.
Somehow all this craziness will pass and I can go back to
The comfort of my own skin, alone.
But I’m not finding that same comfort I was once used to,
Being “Alone.”
God this is maddening,
I have become a sweetened condensed can of craziness.

Audrey Evans
8/07/2009