Not finished!

There is so many things left unsaid
So many things yet to be done
Underneath it all, its slowly eating me alive
I only pray that it knows when I've had enough, to let go

Come live in my world
And you will understand everything about me
Live in my world
And you will see the truth of all things, I deem true and have kept inside my heart
Live in my world
And you will finally love me, the way I want you to

This is not about being selfish
I am not conceited, in ways you may think
Life is meaningless, if your going to live it half dead
There is no happy ending to that story
Only misery and lonliness..and a regret to keep a promise

A regret, that you will always be haunted by..
You will never be happy again, with anyone else..
I know this world like the back of my hand..
Even those who know me best, seem to lack that information
You will never be respected or loved more than you are now...

I do this for the sake of your happiness

When the arguments start..you give up far too easily darlin'
You never help in keeping this alive
I'm always doing it alone

If this is something you really want.
Fight for it..it doesnt matter how hopeless it seems
And when you've lost all hope, ask yourself
What happens if you quit?
There will always be a big "what if"

What if you tried just one more time..
Would you have gotten what you've fought so hard to keep
Everytime it seems like the last chance to grasp your dreams
KEEP TRYING...Dont give up..you'll end up in a place you wish to never be again
The best things in life...are NEVER free..you must give it your all to achieve it, because of its rewards are so much more..

This is not being desperate or obsessive
This is being human..
Continuing to run on raw emotion
And whispers and silent voices enter my mind of past events
Speaking to me about its future prescence, being a possibility
And I feel my brain start to crumble and literally turn to ash with insanity

I feel like I'm going completely out of my mind, I feel like im crazy
For even thinking, let alone feeling, these incredibly powerful emotions that I have for you
You have to work with me on this..otherwise the end result will be anything but pretty

I am hysterical, and unable to think clearly
My vision is clouded by love, my thoughts..clouded by passion
My heart beats to every breath you take..
I have a memory of us everytime you blink...

I never wanted this...I never wanted to feel like this again
But with you, I could DO the impossible..
Again, you proved me wrong, by falling hoplessly in love with you
I promised myself I wouldnt...and yet I still continue to stare down the eyes of fate
The ever vengeful destiny, waiting for a mistake for me to make
So it can fuck me over again like it always has..

Help me end this circle of putrid redundance
Without you, I am no more helpless than a new born...
Pick me up and care for me..as I will do in return for you anyways

Dont feel bad to tell me the truth about anything, just because of my strong feelings towards you.
Do not pity me for nonsense
Do not belittle me..I do that to myself enough

(not finished)