Life will never be the same.

sitting in the car i wonder why I'm here again?
What am I to do this time?
Is this the life I want?
rainn drops fall slow down the window,
watching them in a dreamy state i try not to concentrate,
the screams are loud,
but no ones around to hear them,
it's dark here in the middle of nowhere,
so simple not to care out here
so easy to just watch the rain
easy not to feel the pain.
It will be over soon and i will be gone eventually
How will they remember me?
Should I go in?
Should I intervine?
Should I give in?
I open the door, walk up the drive, no longer do I wonder why
my grip on the gun gets tight, my head is held upright, my eyes wide open
I dont blink, I dont think,
Lift it up Brad!
point it!!!!
Pull it!!!!!
BANG BANG BANG BANG BANG.....................

My life will never be the same.