I Cut Myself, So What

I cut myself, so what
I like to see myself bleed, so what?
its my hobbie so please, don't judge me
I cant get through life,
without cutting my knees

I like to see the blood
dripping to floor,
I like to feel pain
with my flesh so raw
scabs and scares
make me roar
I need some help
my bodies so sore
covered in scares, bruises and scabs
started at my first funeral
it was my fuckin dads
started with drugs
weed and gas
now I see no end
unless I kill my ass

I cut myself, so what
I like to see myself bleed, so what?
its my hobbie so please, dont judge me
I cant get through life,
without cutting my knees

when I was twelve
I had my first experience
Stanley knife
should have been a spear gun
cut both wrists
preyed to die
but I woke up, afterlife's a fuckin lie!
I didn't see no tunnel of light
all I saw was burning bodies
people screaming at their plight
but this was my perfect place
always hated my body
always hated my face
woke up in a mental ward
if you live by the blade
you die by the sword
life just makes me bored
I lived badly so Hell's my reward

I cut myself, so what
I like to see myself bleed, so what?
its my hobbie so please, don't judge me
I cant get through life,
without cutting my knees

I've been living with this for ten years
sometimes I can go a week or a month
other times its years
but as soon as I feel the tears
the anger, the fury and I see myself in a mirror
I need to get the knife
but let me make things clear
I don't cut cause I'm a mosher
Or to try and impress ya
I cut when I'm in a mood
or when I feel too much pressure
when I look and see my face
my body, when I hear myself say
I hate my voice, I hate my parents choice
cause if I was them
I would have drowned me when I was a boy

I cut myself, so what
I like to see myself bleed, so what?
its my hobbie so please, don't judge me
I cant get through life,
without cutting my knees

I went to pray to god, went to the church
but he cant stop the pain, cant stop the hurt
I offered him everything I own, to make me feel
something good, but he didn't like the deal
so I guess I'm destined to go to hell
eternal pain, burn with the devil
cause I'm a bad, bad person
cant stop thinking about killing myself with a gun
you see people tell me life is a gift
I spoke to my parents about the pain
they turned around and told me to deal with it
but I hate who I am, hate who I have become
the best idea I've had is buying that shotgun

I cut myself, so what
I like to see myself bleed, so what?
its my hobbie so please, don't judge me
don't judge me, just watch me bleed