ode to a douchebag IV

i didnt plan this
im feelin abandoned
like my souls the grand canyon
and im fuckin stranded
i cant fuckin stand this
i wish i could end it
my suicide note,
seal it and send it
sometimes i pretend
that im doin okay
but im always alone
at the end of the day
i wish i could mend this
but this pain is endless
and im so defenseless
shoulda known to expect this
yeah i shoulda guessed it would end up like this
like im killin myself like i fell from these cliffs
like im slitting my wrists while my hands are in fists
but theres no one to hit
im so sick of this shit
it hurts like a bitch like you shot me in my heart
like im lost in zion
let bygones be bygones
but this shit wont quit and theres no one to cry on
wherever im placed its my face the sun shines on
blinded with brightness, i cant fuckin fight this
everythings wrong and theres no way to right it
i fell so hard you can see from these scars
broken dreams broken homes broken bones broken heart
feeling failing falling
crying caring calling
harder higher hurry
sighing stealing sorry
flying flailing fleeing
spying staring seeing
biding brusing being
lying losing leaving