There's still so much rage
Leeched inside of me
Some of the things you say
I disagree
You think Im fucking worthless
When I'm not perfect
& when I am as perfect as I can possibly become
It's never enough
I must be such a dissapointment
I didn't play college volleyball for four years
Two years college paid & volleyball workouts
Don't even matter in your eyes
Those two years-down the drain
Excuse me, for making my own decisions
For doing things the way I want too
& accomplishing my own goals, and not yours
You see I got sick of making you happy
Because all you ever did was be mad at me
& I couldn't be depressed anymore,
I wanted to be free, and I wanted to live
So I guess Im sorry its not to your expectations
So I wanted to tell you politely to
FUCK OFF
Because my life isn't about you anymore
To me, you are not a dad or have you acted like one
More than you haven't...
Author notes
i hate the person thats my biological father... hate to say it i do
yes he will die someday dont give me that shit.. i dont care unless youve lived my life and been me in many situations involving him you dont understand!
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Comments
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well if I didn't read your author's note and if you didn't mention the fact he is your biological father I would have guessed that you were trying to live up to someone elses expectations and wlel failed in their eye and well you were being punished with cruel hard words and also physical abuse. any ways with that being said you can only live one way and that is your way. nobody can tell you how to live your life and nobody can control you either because you're not a mere object of affection for the soul purpose of being fucked over and over again til you have no feelings left at all and you're not a mere puppet on strings being toyed round with by a puppet-master but you are you and you are unique and different from everyone else. you have many talents that everyone has not even began to see and you are you. nobody can and nobody ever will control you Sarah because its just not possible. I don't think anyone can even remotely come close to what you been through in your lifetime and for those who can relate or have worse experiences I feel for you all. the point of my comment is you are you and this is a beautifully expressed write. its sad that your asshole of a biological father treated you like he did and is being a jerk about it all but he;s a moron who thinks he knows what is right for you but only you know what is right for you. any ways nice work with this poem and I do hope your poem has helped you feel alot better or least somewhat better than you were before writing this poem. any ways stay strong. live life to the fullest. be yourself and stay unique because to be perfectly honest my sweet friend you're incredible the way you are. any ways keep up the nice work as always.
Paul


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ow doll....
i love and adore you[have for years&&always will]
i liked this poem a bunch because you really let your heart speak all the way through great work hun!
&& you do you!
you shouldnt ever do things that deal with you and your life for other people[not even family] do what makes you happy and what makes you feel good.
if sports and college isnt all you want then do what you want i kno you got dreams and i also kno you can reach and every one of them!
i love you mucho Sarah;
i kno we dont talk much at all these days but i am proud opf you just from where you were in life to where you are now!
keep up the work and i cant wait to read more new writes from you :]
xoxox
vanna



