self-harm and suicide:- Letter to Mike

You see the scars on my arm
And always thought I was calm
You thought I had stopped but no
I was in so much pain, I couldn’t let go

I told you he broke up with me
Can’t you understand and see?
I thought he was the one
And now have nothing to look upon

He said he doesn’t love me any more
And cutting seems the only cure
Please look through my eyes and see my pain
That deep inside I’ll never be happy again

To watch the blood drip on the floor
A smile forms across my face, there’s a cure
Daily I think about self-harm and suicide
And I have to run and hide

The love of my life has forever gone
For deep inside he knew I wasn’t the one
So I’ll pick up this blade once again
Write on the paper without a pen

“Dear Mike I’m still here crying
When deep inside I wish I was dying
You ripped my heart out and you don’t care
You may as well keep it; I have no love to share

I did everything I could to show you my love
Held you close, hugged you, even thought of you above
Got engaged to you, but that meant nothing to you
For I’m the third girl to be your fiancé, now were threw

What makes a girl like me special inside?
When all I want to do is run and hide
You said you loved me more than I loved you
Obviously you lied because we’re now threw

So I’ll cut myself again tonight
Won’t even smile or put up a fight
I’m not sorry for my horrible sin
For my love for you, never did win

I’ll cut myself deep and leave a nasty scar
Watch the blood drown me, and I’ll go far
I’ll think about suicide and how much I love you
This last cut is because we’re now threw “

See my mother and father I loved him so
But my love wasn’t enough so I have to go
I’ll leave you with these happy memories of me
Back in the old days, when I was barely three

I’m leaving now because he doesn’t care
My blood, love and my heart I will share
I’ll be forever broken now forgive me
Shed no tears, for my life wasn’t meant to be