Didn't I?

What Part Of the phrase
"Don't hurt me" did you not get?
He hurt me and you saw what it did.
You Loved it
Didn't you??
You loved to see what was done to me.
You loved the taste of my tears,
the smell of my fear as it danced off of me.
But but when the smell went away,
when I wasnt scared any longer,
you intoxication off my body stopped.
Didn't it??
You need the sent.
You wanted me scared.
I yold you I loved you, that i needed you.
I never wanted to..but you said it back.
So I didnt feel as thought you would do it to.
You had my trust, I was stupid
Wasn't I??
You didn't love me so much when you left
when you forgot to tellme
you wouldn't be there to love me
to tell me I'd be okay.
You were very clever.
Damn you even had me believing there was still hope,
when you came home.
when you slept with me
like nothing ever happend.
you wasn't so speacial to you
Was it??
Astime went on you grew more distant
stop textin as much
stop calling all together.
I finally got smart
I walked away
with every shread of strength
I could find in my body I walked away.
I realized you never loved me
Did You??
You tried to get me back when she got tired of you shit
you told me you were wrong
you told me it would work
but I said no.
I finaaly got smart,
Didn't I??