bowed
as you finished
the secret rites.
small fingers,
closed tight
never
to hold mine.
eyes,
a flower’s furled petals
never to bloom.
mouth,
closed,
forever to keep
your voice and smile,
never to taste
my milk.
*
Before they took you away
behind the silence
of the hospital walls
they asked me
Do you want to see your daughter?
and you were gone.
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How sad and heart-wrenching this is, and must be so very painful for you. I am so sorry for your loss, I didn't know, Sonja. I have no words, but those of sorrow for your precious little girl.
This poem must have been very difficult to write, yet you have given from your Mother's heart his beautiful memoriam for your daughter.
I'm sure she's in heaven resting in peace in the arms of the Lord.
Take care, and know your friends are beside you always. 
Peace, love & hugs,
xx Cyn xx



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Wonderfully written. Hard to write, I am sure. Still in the quitness
you can still smell them.

Joe

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the first time i read this poem i sobbed. i just can't even speak on it Sonja. this is an unbearable silence, and i'm sure it is every day of your life and i'm sorry you have to experience it.
thanks so much for entering...


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Sighs..it all sounds so hauntingly familiar but that's my story and each persons loss of a child is so very insular, no one can understand it. This is the deepest cut of loss that anyone can have
C


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oh Sonja...what does one say about a poem like this.....? i can only say that you've expressed the deepest silence there is so very beautifully...and leave a
here for you. my friend ... 
~ Nicolette


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This is a deeply emotional, touching and sad write. You are brave to write about this. Such a heartfelt and moving poem


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Such sadness
is understood...
I have two wonderful daughters but was never to know my son of 40 plus years ago.

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As I said to Wanda, all lost kids always will be our kids. We do not know them, we never had a chance, but they always will stay in our hearts.
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I Think It Is A Very Sad Story
A "right from the heart" write Sonja - my daughter came home without her firstborn daughter - I felt the pain - and I'm sure she felt a pain beyond compare - but we can rest assured that that the little ones are safe in the Father's arms -waiting for our coming too - you have written well moja Sonja - peace be unto you - Tvoj Josipe ------------------- hugs

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Yes, I wrote it from my heart. I am sorry for your daughter loss. Your comment are always so nice and your words soothe me.
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This is such a deeply moving piece and how brave of you to write about something that must clearly be painful. I hope in the writing you found it a cathartic experience and part of the process of healing. As for the poem itself you managed to home in on a few sparse details that speak volumes, however, the silence here does more then simply speak. Well done


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Dear friend, it takes me 29 years to write about it and it still hurts.
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poetry that goes straight to the heart
i wish you never had to write this poem ):

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Yes, I wish I never had to write it and never to experienced this loss
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Words of Wisdom
"I will not die an unlived life.
I will not live in fear
of falling or catching fire.
I choose to inhabit my days,
to allow my living to open me,
to make me less afraid,
more accessible,
to loosen my heart
until it becomes a wing,
a torch, a promise.
I choose to risk my significance,
to live so that which came to me as seed
goes to the next as blossom,
and that which came to me as blossom,
goes on as fruit."
~Dawna Markova
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Thank you my dear Swanee for this beautiful poem. I think this poem is the best what D. Markova wrote. Very touching and very true.
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So very touching ...
death
still-birth of life
forever this silence
Love to you, Poetess.
Myra


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Yes, there is always some more silence behind this kind of words.
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OH MY! this is deep and powerful. beautiful beginning and a devasting end. very well written and the dialogue is perfect in this piece. Wow.
great write.

good luck to you

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Thank you Catie.
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DEEPLY EMOTIONAL!!!
This is a loss which cannot be put into words
One can only dwell in their own thoughts and feelings.
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You are right my dear friend. It was hard to put it into words.
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