You say you love me but, you don't really know me
I'm sure I would break you heart
You'd soon change your mind
So why even bother trying?
I stay up all hours of the night
crying over memories engraved into my mind
I'm a human stain, with no real worth
In moments notice I could fall apart
I find people very scary, and prefer to be alone
Noises drive me nuts, I need quiet to think
I give myself affection, because its all I've ever known
So many people have stomped upon my heart
my own mother threw me away
I have a vivd imagination and thoguh I try not to,
sometimes lie, to keep from hurting others
my parents blamed me for everything, if only I wasn't born
I carry around so much shame and guilt
I still belive in Jesus, but I question if he even loves me
when my own mother doesn't
I tend to wear dirty clothes, that I pick off the floor
I'm not worthy of anything clean
I'm forbidden to see anyone, or to to go to church,
I spend most of my time on the computer,
or making lists of all the things that hurt.
I would only bring you down
You're better of without me, anyhow
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really emotional
wooow i can relate to this poem sooo much, as somebody actually going through depression i know whats its like not wanting to be wanted by anybody, and actually feeling worthless and hopeless. you captured that feeling really well good job i hope things get better for you
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What a tail you have woven here. Very sad and vividly mindkilled. In darkest times we wonder if there is really anyone out there who could possibly love us. We even wonder if we could possibly love ourselves. Can we? Can we...the greatest mistakes of the earth be loved?
The answer is simple...
Yes.
Well done and thank you for entering,
Your Czarina,
~Seraph -
wow
bery well done -
your name needs to be put into your author's notes before I will read this piece, please
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I felt that way growing up; but my mom was young when she had me. She was just lost. She loves me in her own way, but no where near anything like the mom in the Brady Bunch.
Fantastic job with this piece, the emotions are raw and the imagery very vivid.
Bravo and thank you for entering
♥ Kate -
wow I really like this.
It was taken way different than I figured it would be.
thanks for the twist. :]
good luck.
thanks for entering.
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