don't know

dreaming of a better tomorrow
where the bitterness of today won't exist
but as the night starts to turn into day
i know
all the pain stays the same
you can try to change
lord knows i have, for some reason that only made things worse
i gave it all you know
i gave it all up without a fight
hoping that i would find what was right
what was true, but i left with what i came with
absolutely nothing
he can pretend like its okay
why would i want to interfere with his life?
though i would beat him to show him how he makes me feel
i never touch him, i don't even raise my voice
funny thing...i even apologize more than i should
what a perfect world we live in, huh?
GOD, have i walked down the wrong path?
am i lost to you now?
because i don't feel fine
if we could see our insides, what would we look like?
would we be clean or dirty?
i'm not perfect, no where near it
i don't have the strength to move on
start a new life
i have so many strings connect to the past, that i just get
tangled up
so whats the point of moving?
it only complicates things
what have i done with my life?
if i did change tomorrow or possibly right now
would that make me happy?
would that end all of my sadness?