Dream (not done yet)

I'm in a place I dont wanna be..
Entrapped and entwined on this rugged plain of absolute
Choking and suffocating on stress, government bills, and habitual behavior
The subtleties of life
Overwhelm this impeccable being..

This decadence encompasses me
Never-ending..
A brief emotionally exciting interlude
Is nothing more than just refuge, to the average moon-calf of today
Undeniably withered and repleted with this transgression of sin

This unconditional love, this attribute of undoubted circus of cliche's
Wound and round about this undeserving exponential attention
From weary subjects from the labratory
Whom have a lot of nothing..to say

One great big festering pessimistic orgy
All clumped together making one massive serpentine cast
Such an agnostic..meaning 'without knowledge'
If that's not the definition of stupid, I dont know what is..

Your all scratching your heads, all the while I'm running away
I am no coward..I'm just hiding away..the truth

Poetry's grand talent in words
Are its one weakness..
Limited in use of "correct" volcabulary
Contradicting itself in its meaning of being formless..

Land me inside the rhythm of the music
Carry me through the lines of meaning and reason
And between the thoughts and things left unsaid
Touch me, and fill me with dopamine..Let me feel everything
And Inject this poison, so I feel nothing..

This is all a dream, I dont want to be here..
I'd rather feel pain, than imagine that I do
This is all a dream, and I dont want to be here anymore..
I'd rather be dead, than live inside an illusion
This is all but a dream, that I cannot seem to wake from..

There's a shadow just behind me..it reaches out
Apache screams and chants add to the momentum
At fault to understand
The nature of our ways

Can we live with such chaos
In war withourselves?
At our own throats
trying to kill the other, within us..

(to be continued..)