Drowning in my own tears

I write myself this note,
not because I want to, but because I have to.
I've been off the boards, and fell deep in a pit,
that absorbed me, and my soul.
The closer I came to coming out,
the farther I fell down.
Now there is hope,
among the shadows
a vision in the dark,
that will lead me out.

I climbed aboard a sinking ship
that took me to hell,
and followed myself there,
crawled across the embers
but came back to you .

You were my bright light,
when
you took my hand.
I was drowing in my own tears,
an ocean of violence and pain.
I tried to remember myself,
but you helped me up again.

Now I live with the memories,
and they can't hurt me anymore.
I love you more than life itself,
and you are my faith.