The Most

I look strong as much as I can
I put on a brave face and a smile - for as long as I can
In the end, when you're not around to see it
That's when I question myself

That's when I need you the most

I try to let you know what I need
By telling you I love and miss you
It seems you know my attempt
And you meet the request, but only just

But this is when I need you the most

The automation in your voice
The sigh you didn't want me to hear
The long hesitation before you reply
And your hurry to end the conversation

That's when you hurt me the most

I try to act like everything's alright
And my mask only drops after you sleep
I'll never stop trying to make you say it first
But I can't hold my love silent nearly so long as you

And that is what hurts me the most


(I love to know you desire me too
But it tells me nothing I can't touch
Need is physical
As far down as I can behold it
But need alone won't hold me up
When you're not around
I need to know
That you want me because I'm me)