i saw a stop sign today and i thought of you.
You think everything happens for a reason, you think the stars burn brighter with someone beside you, you think you can do anything, and you thought i was perfect. i won't forget your tidepool irises and everytime you looked at me. i won't forget the fact that we never moved too fast, we went with the flow and we ebbed with the tide.
i want to drown in your t-shirt scents and steal your second favorite hat again. i want you to forget that i screwed up. i want you back.
There are only so many metaphors i can use to describe you. when it rains and the first ray of sunshine bursts through the clouds, that's you. when lightning strikes the sand and you have to dig to find the glass and it's twisted and looks like fire, that's you. when there's a rope bridge across a chasm and you have just enough hope to take the first step, that's you.
you were perfection to me. you were hope. you were everything that i ever wanted.
you were you.
i want to tell you everything i think you are. i want you to know how much you mean to me. i want you to know that i will not hurt you anymore. i wish you would understand.
You used to tell me how beautiful my charcoal rimmed eyes were. you told me how no one had ever treated you as good as i did. you told me i was special and i wanted to believe you. i hung on to the poetic words coming out of your esophagus. i wanted to know that what you said was true and that you meant it. i started to believe in you, in us.
[and it felt like riding on a rollercoaster for the time, going upside down, twisting, your heart beating in your ears and your stomach dropping and everything blurring together from the tears forced from your tear ducts. it felt new and exciting.]
i never meant it. i was stupid when i said we should break up. i just wanted you to protest to tell me i was wrong and that we could fix this. but you didn't. i never meant it. i miss you.
You deserve more. more than me, and more than i can give you. more than a sad eyed girl who views herself as reusable. more than someone who wishes on the unattainable and breaks just a little every time you forget. more than someone who sees through your robotic movements. more than i could ever wish for you.
you deserve someone better.
someone who doesn't write secret poetry about your retinas, who doesn't wish that you would call instead of text, someone who is perfect for you in every single way.
someone you can finally open up to. someone who won't hurt you.
i'm sorry that i can't be her.
i'm sorry that i wish i was a shooting star, that i wish i had wings, that i wish on three leaf clovers and i'm sorry that i write about you and never tell you what i write. i'm sorry that i can never be that girl.
i'm sorry.
i saw a stop sign today and i thought of you. i thought of how when i tried to burrow in your lungs and i looked out the window of my new home to see your heart, i just saw a cherry red stop sign in my way.
you blocked me out.
and i'm sorry.
Author notes
A q u a m a r i n e .
so, i'm sorry it's a bit long. and it wanders at the end, but this is exactly what i needed, i needed to let it out, everything i write lately is about him. i can't help it. i'm hoping i can write about something different now that i've said this. but, idk, we'll see.
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yeh
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thank you
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I love this, absolutely.
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absolutely yes.
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woot.
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You got me. Im wordless. Im gonna give you clappies and wish I could tell you how much this poem really made my heart twist. But I cant. *huggles*
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thank you,
that's what i was going for, any type of emotion is good, well, except for disgust..
that wouldn't be good, lol
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Haha. No that wouldnt be. (:
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omg that was great... its very relatable but still has that personal touch that only you would be able to put in there
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epic, epic opening line. i could tell the mood of the poem just by reading that.
You think everything happens for a reason, you think the stars burn brighter
-maybe have a full stop instead of the comma.
steal your second favorite hat
-hahahhahaa i LOVE that. i simply adore the personal touch there. it's so freaking quirky and it made me smile.
i really liked all the metaphors to describe this person. i like how you ended them all with ',that's you'. it worked really well.
i never meant it.
-great way to start a stanza.
someone who doesn't write secret poetry about your retinas
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that sounds so stalkerish.
that i wish i wings
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. maybe 'wish i had wings'.
i love how the ending ties into the beginning
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thank you, thank you thankyou. you always amke me smile with your comments,
and thank you for pointing out my mistake,
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You always amaze me with your words. It's so...gah, amazing. I can't think of anything else to say. I feel your emotions pouring out & I want to help you so bad sometimes...you know? I love this, Jes.
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thank you (:
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great poem and I can relate to this.
I'm sorry that you have to feel that way,
it really isn't a good feeling!
hopefully things turn out well for you in the end,
good luck with your contest and with that guy, as well.
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thank you ,
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