Dear Mom,
Do you remember when you got pregnant with me at 17?
How you planned to have an abortion and didn’t know who my Dad was
But instead you didn’t want me and sent me with my grandparents at 2 days old
You were never there, a new man every few weeks
Didn’t you know a baby needs consistency?
8 years old spent my days being teased in school
About how I live with my grandparents, didn’t have a father, and my own mother didn’t want me
I cried and cried but I still never understood how you could take those things from me
I came to terms with my surroundings and still you were my mom
The years went by, I hit 13
You came around every once in a while
And still you were my world; I loved you despite your flaws
13 was the age it all went down hill
I started to become like you
Do you remember when I stayed at your apartment with 2 men constantly coming in and out?
You came home drunk, wrecked the jeep…you were crying
I helped you inside and up the steps, I even helped you into bed
You looked into my eyes despite your drunken state
And do you remember what you said to me?
“Are you mad at me? I’m so sorry, Christina if only I could take it all back.”
I finally thought my life was complete
At 15 I hated my life
Starting to wonder why my life was how it was
I hated where I was living, I wanted out
I asked to come live with you but all I got was excuses
You had a new man and 2 more kids; I didn’t fit into your life
After all I was your biggest mistake
16 now, I decided to give you one more chance
To be in my life and treat you like a mother
Instead when I confided in you, you used it all against me
You lied, made up rumors, and tried to make my life hell
And you succeeded because after all it’s what you’re best at
The constant insults of how I’m fat, lazy, stupid, and a whore
But mother I must ask…were you looking in the mirror?
Do you remember how you hit me?
Slapped your own daughter in the face, pushed me to the ground, and screamed at me
Called the police and lied once again, saying I started it like the crazy person I am
Accusations of drugs, prostitution, and destroying property
The police saw my way and you couldn’t stand it, so you called mental health
Told them you wanted nothing but the best for your suicidal cutter daughter
How does it feel to know some of those cuts were because of you?
So Mom I’ll say this only but once
When you say I was your biggest mistake, you’re right
It’s your mistake that you missed out on having a teenage daughter
Your mistake that you let your life fall apart
Your mistake for every trying to pick a fight with me
And it will be your mistake when you’re old and alone, and none of your many men are beside you
Just know I would’ve been there, holding your hand…if only you wouldn’t have disowned me
Sincerely, Me
I know its long, but it all neeed to be said
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aww, christina i lovee this poem, mostly becasue i can relate to u, i went throughalot of the same shyt, my mom gave me up, had more kids, gave them up and then had 2 more, she has them with hur, but she doesnt want me i tried to go live with her but she made up excuses why i couldnt, i love this, its lyk u took thoughts out of my head and wrote them, i lovee thisssss..
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thank you, i had no idea you could relate. im so sorry you had to go thru that i kno tht it sucks and i kno its hard, but you gta realize ur mom and my mom are bad people not us. the fact they dont want us is their fault. love you and thanks again 4 the comment
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This is so sad and made me cry, but i liked it anyway.
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awww thanks
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Very nice. I know just how you feel about having to write something just to get it out on paper. That way it's still alive to you... but not a constant thought. I've had a few of those myself.
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1st of all gta say love the pic of the albino pygmy marmoset
and 2nd thank you for taking time to read this, i kno its long lol. ya i felt sooo much better after i wrote it down.
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Your probably the first one to ever know what it was or that it actually exists. Lol.
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lol only cuz im like totally obsessed with em lol so cute
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Very sad Chris. Im sorry you had to go through that. Remember that you will always have friends here for you. I hope you will find peace one day.
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its okay...and thanks i hope too
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This is really sad. It put me to tears
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thank you for taking the time to read it. im glad you liked it
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