secrets

there are some things
you cant tell your best friend
like how he hurts you,
or the words he says.
like the secret of the rape
how he forced you,
buried deep inside.
things you cant say
out of shame,
out of fear.
come to me my dear.
let me know
how it eats at you,
i promise i wont tell,
but hunny
if you dont tell someone,
it may kill you.
i know youre wary
and dont want to trust.
i didnt either.
he had a problem
was so twisted,
took myself from me
i was six
he was sixty.
i wouldnt tell
how he hurt me
the way it ate at me.
it hurt
to be so afraid.
i told my mom,
when i was thirteen
and a year later,
it happened again.
with another guy.
my boyfriend's best friend.
he left me
because he didnt believe me.
no one ever did
he was their supplier
and i was a whore and a kid.
well hunny
itll eat you up.
and if you ever want to talk
you know where to find me.
i promise to stay silent
and lock the words in my heart.
ill be here,
i promise
from the start.