Reminder

Fire drips down my limbs
bringing enlightenment, and pain that swims
all around in my head
reminding me that
im not dead

Xacto knife glides across the skin
cut, cut, cut, one more slice and I WIN
Ill be the one who could endure the pain,
all my worries, they will be slain.
And thoughts of you will swim in my head,
reminding me that
im not dead

Rape, drugs, and self injury,
the words all fit in my poetry
dare you say ive got a 'good' life
Ill laugh at you while holding my knife
Your pleading voice will ring in my head
reminding me that
im not dead

Please can we just not fight
Because in my life, you are the light
Im really sorry that we disagree
Your life plan is just not for me
So please let my hushed voice
linger in your head
This is me telling you
that im not dead