Don't read this until I walk away.

My dearest friend,

  I most sincerely apologize for giving this to you so unprecedentedly. I just came to the conclusion that it’s best for me to leave like this, knowing that neither of us did anything wrong. There is no room for hate or anger, but I have also realized, there’s no room for my infallible love.

  Once upon a time, you looked at me with your dazzling brown eyes, and slowly, but surely, you stole the breath straight from my lungs. I knew in that one brief moment that your hand brushed against mine that I was hopelessly devoted to you. This insignificant life that I possessed was now only for you.

  It has always all been for you, and I know in the back of my head it always will be. But this is why I must go. I can’t turn around to mutter the impossible farewell to your lovely face or to give you once last hug. I just must leave knowing that you are happy with… her. I must go before I mess things up to such a degree that they cannot be fixed and you are unhappy.

  Please understand, my dear, that this is best for the both of us. Our friendship has always been strong, but the love I have for you is beginning to break it. It’s best to be quick and painless and let you choose your own path without my input. You have my complete blessing with this beautiful girl. She’s wonderful and perfect for you. I’ve never seen your face light up as much as it does in her presence.

  Now, please, do not come chasing after me. My life is not a fairytale, and you are no prince charming. I will always love you despite how much I tell us both that I don’t. But there’s where that old line comes in: “If you love something, give it away…”

And the worst part is I would still die for you.




                                                                                                              Forever yours,
                                                                                                                                Me.