remember all thoughs nights
i preyed you would die
because of all the nights
i stayed up to cry
''i wish you were dead''
i used to scream
so that makes today
feel like a dream....
i've spent so very long
getting you out of my head
stopping the memories
so i didn't cry before bed
i did alot of drinking
to make you go away
bad things happened
thats all i will say
i did alot of drugs
to ease my inner pain
but it didn't work
and you made me insane
i tried to carve out
that 'hole' on the inside
by slicing open my arms.
by commiitng suicide
nothing made you go
so i cleaned my act
eventually i got 'better'
i no longer 'cracked'
i almost forgave you
i was there on the ledge
i was about to forget
dump the memories off the edge
but father you've died.
i still haven't cried
am i really that heartless
really that dead inside?
you're getting a memorial
i don't think i'll go
your family hates me
and they really let it show
so when i show up
i'll just want to leave
i'll be a bad guy
because i don't greive
maybe i am heatless
and inside icy cold
but that what you taught me
don't show the emotions i hold
father your dead....
gone forever
what do i do now?
forget always, or never
Author notes
my father died...
i still haven't cried
i don't want to go spend a few weeks with his family, none of them like me b-cuz i stopped talking to my father, but i don 't want to regret not goingthe rest of my life either.... i don't know what to do....
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Comments
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Very deep and heartfelt. A lot of emotion. Great work.
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This one almost made me cry......... almost. It's all so deep and emotional. What you've been through, if you've gone through it is near heartbreaking. You make the reader want to run up to you and give you a hug. Truly inspirational.
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Only go if you think you can find comfort there.
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Wow, Powerfull Stuff...
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