My tears were like acid
Landing on my dress
I covered my eyes
Sheilding their view
Don't let them see me cry
i repeated over and over
Was i crushed?
I wasn't not.
Did i feel ripped apart?
Well i wasn't in one piece.
I turned to my Mother
Her face was drentched in tears
I am her only daughter
How could they steal this from me?
From her?
Capture my dreams and shatter them
right before my eyes
I took a breath.
Embracing the pain that surrounded me.
Planned my suicide.
Scribbled a poem in my mind.
As the doctor told me the procedure.
His words were as i expected
Completely painless
No emotion
..he does this everyday.
As i stood in shock and disbelief
My legs almost collapsed underneath me
I was shaken.
[And then the thoughts ran...]
He is a thief
Why did he give up on me?
Why would he take this away from me?
I HATE HIM!
Why me?
I want to die
This isn't supposed to happen
...to me.
A month before my 15th birthday.
I scrubbed my body and said my goodbyes
As they cut open my flesh
Stole all my innocence and pride
..and took my only hope for children.
My Womb.
And now i ask the questions
Am i truely a woman?
A question that will never get answered.
Author notes
I got a hysterectomy 2 years ago.
Its amazing how a trip to the doctors can crush your dreams.
Take away the only piece of you that you want.
well thats my story
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Thank You for Your Entry ~
My heart broke as I read this
The raw pain you've expressed just ... damn. I can't imagine this happening at such a tender age - you are very brave for posting this and speaking out about it 
Best of Luck
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Stay safe
~Manda
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Jesus Christ! I'm so sorry... This is an experience that should not happen to anybody and for it to happen to someone at your age... is heart breaking. You had taken away from you what is our first instinct for any living thing. Although I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, this makes me second guess that theory. I can only say that you will do something great with your life in turn of what has been taken away from you... A painful and intense write, Doll. Very impacting and I story I will never forget... I wish I could do more.
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Omg,A tear fell from my eye!! This is so painful to read!! If this ís tru love, Í am deeply sorry that u had to experience such maddness!! We never know "why us" or things wouldn't be so Effing difficult in our lifes!! Don't give up, there are always other options when the times come!! I don't know what else to say!!
This is written with SO MUCH EMOTION and PAIN!! I'm upset and confused while reading this!! You are still yet so young and beautiful!!
U know how to find me if/when u wanna talk!
*Kelsi*
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