The Last Regret

I can't take this anymore, it's too much
No one will help me
After swallowing my pride and asking for it
I get nothing as a response
I can't do anything right
I just wanted to fix it
But i needed help to do it
...nothing...

No one will talk to me anymore
They just turn their shoulders
Act as if I'm not there

I feel as if I'm not wanted anymore
Like everyone I know and love
Have finally turned their backs on me
I knew it would happen some day
But it still hurts

Loneliness crashes upon me like a dark wave
Knocking the breath out of me
I can't breathe, and I can't swim...
Dragged out to sea by the single wave of despair
It's sad, really
No matter how hard I fight
And how long I struggle to stay afloat
I'm still forced down, into the darkness

Nothing I can say, nothing I can do
But hope it will be painless
...I already know that I hope in vain
But I can't help but try
Try to ease the pain, even a little

At least one thing will reassure me
As I'm lost, drowning in my own pain

No one will miss me
So they can go on with their lives
As if I'd never interferred in the first place

That makes it easier to bare...
No one will miss me
No one will remember me
So no one can harm me anymore

No help, no light, nothing
Just a small fight
That I was always meant to lose

...I've stopped struggling
Let it envelop me
Take me away, let it stop

As the pain subsides, I see a face in my mind
The only one that hadn't turned
But the one all the others had stopped

I'm sad one last time
As I think that I will never be able to apologize

It's too late

I'll never be able to say I'm sorry
For giving in my fight
And letting it over take me

But I am, now, sorry