I don't believe in Paper Towns

I don't believe in Paper Towns.
John Green does not define me.
Though he can put forth beautiful philosophical works, they fail to resonate with me.
I have learned, or at least decided, that what is right and true is usually what feels right to me. Like having fun with my friends. Loving my family. Knowing that everything is and will be ok and being able to trust in that.
I can shape my beliefs.
I always let others imprint their thoughts on me. The sad book that I'm trying to read is so dark that I don't see the hopeful side of it. Is there one?
I have to finish it.
But if I had a choice, I think I would have never picked it up.
When I feel so sure about everything is when I am happy and I know that it is the right thing to be feeling, so when this book challenges me, shakes me, I know it's not healthy.
I want to live here in this world, now, in all it's fragile structure.
It is beautiful.
I don't have to float away to find myself.
And I hope I don't.
I hope I won't change my mind because of something that somebody else has written.
Not John Green.
I am me and I have mine and I must remember that with my mind.
Me.
Mine.
I.

I
believe
in
me
.