parking lot romance.

i loved the way you would look at me,
the way we shared our last cigarettes,
we would catch each other's eye & smile,
i was convinced, this is as good as it gets.

i was wrong, it was all downhill from there,
the calls & texts came to an abrupt end,
i was left to sit & wonder what i had done,
no evidence left of you even being a friend.

the days pass, unlike the longing in my heart,
longing for your touch, to just hear your voice,
still no word. are you ok? where did you go?
worry & defeat filling my brain, i have no choice.

you made me feel alive again after so much pain,
taking it all away with a smile or gentle touch,
only one other had made me feel this way before,
no in the way that you do, no one got me as much.

i had finally found a mate who i was all me with,
you would never judge, just happily laugh with me,
share the little things like shyly throwing pebbles,
all i wanted was to be with you, happy as can be.

i miss you. do you know that? do you even care?,
to you, am i just another name with no meaning?,
to me you are beyond just a name, but a safe place,
a place that i love, that was warm & never demeaning.