"It's kind of funny when you think about it..."

It's kind of funny when you think about it...
Every time that I come back for more...

hahaha...

I'm still alive...I made it through yet another sleepless night alone...that's funny...

hahaha....

How can I feel that it's all going to end...that I can't take it anymore...and then it turns out okay?

The next morning...I'm still in one piece...I'm still breathing...

Life can play sick tricks on people, I guess.

Maybe today I'll take a deep breath and walk away...or maybe today will be my breaking point: the day I give up...but haven't I given up so many times before?

I have given up countless times...I've also walked away from this useless battle...yet here I still stand...aching and hurting sometimes...and other times radiating a calm that, I dare say, I do not feel...

It is quite funny....really it is....

hahaha!