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Phantom Of Myself

 

Wedding bells toll

   The cadence of my funeral march

   As a piece of my life dies

 

Love long lost

   And with it my life

   For what is life without true love

 

In shades of grey

   My life is a graveyard

   Dark desolate perfect for me now

 

A living corpse

   I am my own mortician

   Putting on a façade for their benefit

 

Smiles they want

   Invisible sutures making one

   As perfumes cover the stench

 

She marries another

   My soul mate found another

   As "I Do's" drive the final nails

 

Her life arises

   As I descend six feet under

   A phantom of what I once was.

Author notes

Was in a dark mood the day this was written. I gues it is sort of an overdramatic expression of what I felt when I found out that my soulmate was getting married to another guy. 13 July 2009

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  • light to a dreamer gold member
    August 19

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    It Does Feel Like Death!

    A soulmate is a great loss but to know that they are is truley a gift and a curse all in one. You show such hurt. Yet still laid it all on the line in this poem. I find hope in you work that I am note the only one. I wish you Luck and Love.


    • SomeonesToySoldier gold member
      August 21
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      Thank You I wish you luck as well. I'm afraid that to many people know the emotion in this poem. Writing helps me deal with issues and I hope in a way that it can help others that are dealing with the same situation.


  • perfectsunset gold member
    August 11

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    A dark and convinging tale you've
    woven here.. this was amazing.
    I love the images you place
    throughout so beautiful and
    yet expressing a sense of loss.

    Love it.

    Best of luck & thanks for entering

    • SomeonesToySoldier gold member
      August 13
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      Thanks Meghan. I know in some spots it does sound a little cliche but there are some areas that it cant be avoided. I'm glad you liked it.


  • Angelflower
    July 14

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    Love should never be kept secret, I'm sure that you have told her how you feel, you don't seem like a guy who is afraid to keep that to himself .. But maybe you should tell her again, that way you know for sure how she feels? True love will come again, just don't be scared to take that step and embrace it... When a soulmate leaves in one stage of your life, The big man upstairs tends to find you another when you most need her... Love her, but don't mourn her loss, or you will lose a chance for another beautiful love... All the best to you hun..

    Angel

    • SomeonesToySoldier gold member
      July 16
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      It is no secret. She may not know exactly how I still feel. I'm not really in love with her anymore but I do still love her and we have a closeness that seems unnatural at times since we are just friends and exs. Out of fear of what may happen we dont see each other in person anymore but still talk alot.


  • Sue Cardwell gold member
    July 14

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    A very heartfelt write, I can feel the love in this piece, you have described your feelings well and the sadness within shines out of your words.
    I think you need to tell her how you feel before it's too late.

    All the best in whatever you decide to do.

    Sue

    • SomeonesToySoldier gold member
      July 16
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      She already knows we have had the discussion more than once. Life has taken us away from each other and weve moved on with out lives. We're still the closest friends and dont really have the option of going back now.


  • storiesuntold gold member
    July 14

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    Have you told her how you feel

    This is most important to tell her before marriage your true heart feelings for her You never know she may feel ther same way and thought you didnt have them Never hold back love for another keep an open heart and mind miracles still happen

    • SomeonesToySoldier gold member
      July 16
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      She knows we had the discussion after she proposed but before she answered him. We still loved each other after we split but she get pregnant with a guy that she was with after me and he eventually proposed to her. We intentionaly avoid having to much contact with each other because we are afraid of what the outcome would be.

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