Back to being alone
no one answers the phone
Everyone out with their friends
lonliness no one intends
Yet here i sit, staring at a lonely star
wondering why i let my friendships stretch too far
They have lives, hopes, and dreams
I pursue nothing as it seems
Too used to being the loner everywhere
Having someone stay with me that long
has made me more aware
Now that she is gone
I realize how for too long I've withdrawn
Never was too sure on who to lean
kept my distance, stayed unseen
Denial to be attatched or in need
no emotion upon my face to read
But tonight i feel it eat away
though i refuse to say
Where to turn,
for this time before anyone returns?
staring at the scars upon each arm
searching for distraction from self harm
How did I do it before?
How did I learn to ignore?
It's been one day too long
and already being alone, I am no longer strong.
Unfamiliar what this feeling I've shown,
clearly not used to feeling alone.
~Madison~
Author notes
My best friend from Virginia stayed with me a month after not seeing eachother for 2 years. I was not used to always having someone with me, and i took it for granted. Now my best friend who lives here is on a mission trip for a month, and they both just left. And I already am lonely, and can't remember how I did it before.
I miss you Jackie! You've reminded me of what a great friendship we have! even long distance!
And Jane, I'm counting the days till you're home!
hate when the summer feels so alone
Comments
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Great Job
This is a good poem, I can tell its filled with emotion. if youre not strong enough to be by yourself, Its always easy to make new friends, expecially on here.
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good
i am sort of going through the same thing i wish you luck exellent poem though
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