With your smile in my head,

Dear , My first true love.

I never forgot your blue eyes, and how they sparkled under all those stars, inches from the campfire those nights. I will never lose the sound of your voice that resides inside my skull. Those flames burned out. I didn't.

I miss you. To the full extent that the word 'miss' could ever surmount. I remember when your heartbeat would explode at the touch of my lips. I hoped it wasn't imagined. There was never a day when I didn't regret the sting my words must have caused your stuttered thoughts.

The night before I left , I screamed for you. Your saving me is all I had to hope for. You couldn't come for me, I know, you had no idea. My life is lost, I'm a lost cause, and I know. I have no doubts that my leaving improved your chances at having an amazing life. I fell hard, I'm just glad you weren't around to let me drag you down as well.

My heart breaks in half , over and over, when I think of those nights. I avoid the thought of your face and your mouth as it let 'iloveyou' become the greatest thing I've ever taken for granted. My fragmented thoughts only gradually forgot to remember, for every second of every minute.

You are my life. You are my love.

I haven't forgotten. Your hand was the sweetest I've ever held. You are the only one I will live for, ever again. I've spiraled. down.
down
down.

But all you've ever done is let me fly.

Love
me always, please.