There’s something lurking behind those hazel eyes
Something hinting at suppressed lies
That all the good you intend to do
Is simply something to get me fooled?
I’ve always believed
Everything you’ve said to me
Every time is the last
But when the time comes
The last time is just our past
& the new one reigns in
& I’m in the dumps again.
It’s the same old cycle
& I'm sick of our history repeating itself
You never meant anything you said
And these empty, old promises are crowding my head
They’re building up
Overfilling my cup
Can you follow through on just one,
Or do I really have to be done?
Your prescription addiction
Is positively sickening
I didn’t sign up for this
& I’m pretty pissed
I came into this relationship
Expecting a man, not having to baby sit.
You act like a complete idiot
I can’t take it
I’m calling it quits.
I’ve delt with the drugs
The booze
& the lies
For as long as I could
But now I’m letting go
You need to stand on your own
My arms are heavy and baby I'm tired
So I'm writing you this poem to tell you I've retired
from standing post at your door
& checking to make sure youre not on the floor.
I'm not as strong as I was before.
I’ve tried to save you for way too long,
So Instead now I’m saying so long.
My heart is heavy & my soul is worn thin
I've used all strength I had reserved within.
Clean your act up
Or say goodbye
Because I'm really done This time
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An ultimatum, and worthy of the title at that. Ah, but, but for the grace of God there go I. Well written.
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hun i hope this gives him the jolt he needs to see what a darling you really are a great piece full of awakening and you are doing the right thing love you and your pen xo
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a very powerful write, indeed. poetry is so beautiful because you get to see into peoples hearts. im sorry you have to go through all of that bullshit girl. you seem very strongwilled and good hearted - but you really do have to protect yourself too. you should not have to be responsible for him, and let him drag you down. addicts seem to have a constant urge to self-destruct that delves deeper than anyone's hand can reach for to try and pull them back up. they must realize the hole they've created for themselves, and climb on their own. your back should be free of burden because you are lovely and full of life!
but i know too, you obviously know these things.
it is easy to think logically, but with matters of the heart
very difficult to act logically.
i wish you the best of luck, and keep writing chicka!
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Thank you so much for this advice as well as the compliments, I appreciate them. I tried so long to just beg & plead with the boy, offered ultimatums & even took it personally when I said it's me or the shit, and he did it over & over again. "Why am I not good enough" that question haunts me, and sometimes I grasp the fact that it's not me, it's not me at all, but at the same time I still wanna know why I am not reason enough to stop. Why would he ratherlose me if he says he loves me as much he does.
There's a constant battle in my mind. I guess Pat Benetar was right, Love is a battle field!
Thank you for your words of wisdom! They are very much appreciated!
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this is a really strong statement and i appauld you!!
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you aint so bad Brea and i know all too well what your talkin bout here and it sucks when you get cheated on and theres no actual person to beat up
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Thanks! This poem was actually about my love's addiction & how I'm tired of always being told that it's gunna stop, only for him to relapse the next day. I want my baby back, I miss him so much because he's not the same. I feel so distant, so far from him, which hurts because he was my lover & best friend & recently I feel the distance getting wider & wider between us. It physically hurts. I feel like Im getting cheated from my life with him. I just love him, but enough is enough. I love him so much that I refuse to watch him sink down any further.
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my next poem is for you young lady
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Thank you!
If it's the untitled one then it is absolutly beautiful!
If not then I shall wait paitently!
You're so kind!
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I know exactly what your poem was about cuz i lived it for 3 years and it sucks...it really does! I was actually a substance abuse counselor for a minute and i thought I would enjoy helping people with that.... the truth was - so much pain and suffering and theres nothing that noone else can do...it truly is a personal thing that the addict has to come to grips with and until that happens...nothing changes.You cant push someone towards recovery nor can you bear the responsibility of thier habit's bullshit.
I feel for ya girl and i'll pray that your life does not continue to be defined by something that is out of your control.
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Wowwwww!! I love this; this could easily be a song...
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Thank you!
Just doing some soul cleansing via writing, bt thanks for the support! I greatly appreciate it!
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