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Dear Loni,
I am afraid. I’m afraid of mirrors and flashbacks and breakdowns, wishes that don't come true and poetry that doesn't rhyme.
I hate love and being alone.
ii.
Dear Loni,
I want to be everything I’m not. I want to be tightropes without safety nets and supernovas and perfect explosions. I want to be that girl. I want to be a Technicolor savior and a ferris wheel fantasy;
I want to be more.
But I’m fogged glass and crossed arms. I am clouds without lightning and oceans without waves.
I am nothing.
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Dear Loni,
I fear secrets because they compose me. Sometimes I lie awake at night feeling them take over me, and sometimes I don’t know who I am anymore. I feel empty and I know it’s my own fault.
There are times I need something else,
Proof that there’s more to this, proof that I’m more than atoms and scattered prose.
Sometimes I read other people’s poetry to know I’m not the only one who feels this way. There are nights I call through the Internet to people I’ve never met,
because I need someone to know I’m alive.
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Dear Loni,
I have never met you. But I need you to believe that I am more than cracked ribcages and desperate lines. I need belief, I need not to be alone, I need a heartbeat, I need closure.
And my God I feel pathetic.
Love,
the girl without a name.
HeartbreakHeroine-x
Author notes
I tried. ♥
by the way, Loni is Kiss the girl--x.
In a list
A contest entry
- i'm leaving[but who's going to save me next time] by Kiss the girl--x.
1400 points, ended July 15, 13 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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a life savor
one second ago i turned on my computer and all poetry was on my screen, this was the first link, you'll never know me, but you just saved my life...thank you...deeply
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I had to keep reading it over and over. U did a really good job on this. loved it
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beyond wonderful write, i loved this.
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this is so amazing 1s again i keep rereadin it lol
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you succeeded! great write. an in depth look into oneself. a write i relate to.
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love,
you are more than prose on an empty page, you are stronger than the past and too spectacular for the present.
i want to be more, but i'm too scared of falling. i want to be a tightrope, but i need that safety net. which makes you stronger than me, because you aspire to be more. i hide in shadows and wait for people to find me.
you are everything. and clouds without lightening are better than clouds full of angry thunderstorms.
we're all reaching for something. someone to acknowledge us, to hold open arms and doors and wait for us to suceed so they can cheer for us.
you are alive, simply because you're choosing to be. and that's bravery.
feeling lost in a world of billions of people, and choosing not to give up.
never feel pathetic, because i believe in you.
i believe in your words, and your thoughts,
i believe in your heart that pushes blood around your body, and i believe in you.
i believe that one day, you can believe in you too.
love,
loni
♥
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wow this is so heartfelt and truly poetic... I absolutely love it
great job you are truly an artist and I do enjoy reading your work
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i love this! Do u really feel this way? i hope not
z it u do. Great write.
~Divine~
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i reeeeeally loved the imagery in your metaphors. They bring so much emotion to your, oh so sad, poem. No, my dear, you are not alone. I loved this and it's candid way of speaking. keep it up and release your heart.
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heart felt
i love this so much... this part just caught my eye:
"I fear secrets because they compose me. Sometimes I lie awake at night feeling them take over me, and sometimes I don’t know who I am anymore. I feel empty and I know it’s my own fault"
its not pathetic at all to feel this way.. it's the way we all get! we all get lonely and reach out to strangers for comfort.. sometimes strangers are even more kinder than the people yiy think you know!!
beautiful hun.... keep your feelings real always ^_^
Vonnie
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nope
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soz the f's r supposed to be roses (r) see if this works
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awwww this is brilliant im feelin like that at the mo at school theyve just put me in a room with loads of people i dont know and im not allowed to go to lessons or be with my friends or anything its like solitary confinement
so hows u this is really gud i hope you win the contest this poem deserves it i cudnt pick a fav part its all so true but some people dont realize i feel pretty invisible at the mo its like i dont exsist to every1 theyve locked me away and thrown away the key 
i can really relate to the feeling of this poem and i love the name i also think the structure is gr8 the way its written as like 4 letters im just woundering is lony a friend or is it sum1 in the imagination i really love this once again another gr8 write
Like i said i can really luv the name just gr8 imagination and creativity (i hope this isnt true i wud hate 2 think that u felt like this or like me i hate it) gr8 write
Beth
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