the Pills I Take

These pills I take to kill the pain are slowly taking me
I wake at night in fear and sweat, they wont let go to see
The life I live has led me here, but how do I move on?
Its taken every thing I was and turned me to its pawn.

These pills I take to just exist, to just get out of bed
have taken every thing i love from right inside my head
they've taken thoughts and memories and torn them all apart
they've taken everything I am and now they want my heart.

Why cant I see how I got here, Why cant I just go back
Why cant I see that Life is good and I don't need this crap.
Im blind to this I don't know why Im fighting every day
the pills I take to just exist, they want me in my grave.

those pills I took to kill the pain of living with this life
have cost me more then I can pay, I didn't know the price
they've cost me love and happiness, my kids my cars my wife
you couldn't tell me nothin then, I didn't want advise

The pills I took to kill the pain just wont get out my head
they call to me on days like this when I cant get out of bed
Ill beat these things if it costs me everything that Ive got back
The pills I took to kill the pain have forced me back on track