Schizophrenic Love

She's beautiful.
As close to perfect as I've ever seen...
She's like the one in my dreams

So much time wasted
I hate it.
I'm jaded
Empty feeling inside and no one can replace it.
Warning signs popping up--
Be careful Eddie
DANGER

But she wants to know the poet
and the gangbanger..

There's so many "ifs"
and something in the way
yet I think about her every second of the day
None of these lines
No rhymes can explain
We've got so much in common
its got me going insane

I haven't been sprung in a while
not my kinda thing
definitely not my style
I'm sick of the ups and downs,
Emotions thrown around,
My heart isn't getting chewed up and spit out..
again.

Then again she is just a friend
and my heart's not for sale
But I want to be more
I'm attached to her -E- mail
Can't be puppy love
I'm too old for a crush
She's beauty and brains
Marinated and mixed up
Nice body
Thick thighs
Light skinned and
those gorgeous hazel eyes

Hmm.

Who is Eddie writing about?

Wait till I tell you about her Sailor
She's like the answer to my prayers..

Ok yeah whatever I'm agnostic
Forget it
Never mind
Just drop it
I'm a man
I've got my ego
Got my power
But she's been through so much
I want to be the sweet to her sour

I'm so sick of corny lines and even cornier rhymes.
I'm a schizo, anything but a hero.

I hate being on the phone
but I love hearing your voice all night
I don't like to be alone.

I'm not going to get all soft for a girl again
I've got my money
I've got a plan
Got my friends
Not getting stabbed in my heart
No hook
No jab
Even if I'm incomplete
I don't need two confused halves
Are you even real?
Sometimes I'm convinced your just a dream
and in the dream I'm a King without a crown
and you have to be my queen

Then I wake up and its a completely different scene
but the feeling remains
and you're going to be my queen
So come and relax
Take a seat on the throne
Just you and I
I'll leave the other girls alone




NO.
I can't have a cheesy ending.

You're amazing.
You're exciting.
It could be me and you forever
but for now I'm done writing.