Bloody Tears

I've cried so often, wondering when the
pain would end.
Is there really a way to end it all
Or is it forever?
When looking at the monster in the mirror I wonder:
"did he do this to me?"
It seems like forever ago when
he stole everything from me.
But honestly it was only 2 years...
two years isn't that long ago.
Since when Did I allow my ghosts to haunt me?
Since when Did I allow tears to fall?
Since when was I completely lost to the world?
Since when did I just give up?
I'm tired of crying,
I've no tears left,
But maybe upon the end,
My tears will bleed crimzon, and I will regret
not letting go.