You think you know
Everything that's going on...
But I will tell you this,
You really don't.
I hide behind this facade
Of being really happy
And excitable...
Yes, I am easily amused,
But I am not what you think...
TO be truthful,
I am becoming numb...
I'm through with crying
Behind closed doors
When no one is looking...
I'm done with the yelling
I'm done with screaming...
Trying to get you to hear
The things that I feel...
I don't want to feel this,
I'd rather be numb
Than feel the pain
I feel right now...
Everytime I get angry,
Whether it be with myself
Or with someone else...
I hurt myself...
I just want to die sometimes,
I hate myself sometimes...
Maybe being numb will
Help me with my problems...
I have become numb
To anything you can say to me.
Author notes
Just some more thoughts... *sigh* I feel better today, but still a bit depressed...
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Comments
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wow girl. This is a very good piece! I absolutely LOVE how you wrote it and expressed your thoughts and feelings. Keep up your amazing work!
Shadoweyes -
"I hide behind this facade
Of being really happy
And excitable...
Yes, I am easily amused,
But I am not what you think..."~I love this!
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WOW
This is a lot like one of my poems...Just know that love always conquers hate keep your head up and everything will be ok!!! Thank you for your write!!!
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dark, very dark but good
i really like the short, chaotic lines and how the stanzas are broken
the long pauses and seeming strain for thought both add to the feeling of numbness
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