Disillusionment

Hollow
That is how I feel now
Like my mask
My concealing falsehoods
Are all that I am
And so I curse my lies
My needless hiding
From eyes that pry into me
Eyes that aren't there
I could have stopped this
I think
I could have shown who I was
While the mask was still
When it was only a thin veil
But where would that have gotten me
A padded cell
Or an early death
It's too late now
The mask has become me
Somehow
Some way who I am
Truly
Stays inside me
And it screams
And fights
To get out
But I can't get out
Not without help
But who can I turn to
When no one even knows
There is a mask
There is an impenetrable lie
Those that get that I'm not
Who I portray myself to be
Don't understand that I want out
I want rid of this role
This emptiness that swallows me up
And so I wearily fight it
Silently calling for help
Pleading with my eyes
My actions
No one sees these ties that bind
And so I too shall die
Like the Virgin Queen