I'm clinging to something, something that has evaporated into thin air along time ago. Something that has lost its precious meaning to all those around me. Yet, to me it still occupies a big part of my heart, my soul and my thoughts. I trace the faint lines of its existence every time I am left by myself, or left unoccupied.
Though with time I have come to realize that some dreams are mere illusions, ones that have no roots in reality. And with time I have come to realize that those we cherish the most are those who are going to leave us in the end. And I have come to realize that time will never swipe its magical wand and erase all the pain from our memory. Time can not heal the wounds in the heart, though it might lessen their pain.
Emotional wounds, unlike physical ones, never turn to mere scars. They remain oozing into these veins reminding them of the knife that's caused this harm.
I tried to close all the red-painted doors behind you as you slipped over my doormat. I tried to paint blank every trace of you in this house. Yet, I still follow the traces of your perfume.
My mind has become a bottomless jar, filled with thoughts I find no beginning or end to. Their meanings are unrevealed to me as I swim in the ocean of my memories trying to find a gap through which I can slip back into your world.
This window is reflecting my image in ripples, distorting all my features. I have become unrecognizable even to myself, as I stare back at mere lines with no core.
I know you've found the eraser that could take off all my lines from your history. The one which has erased everything that I have given you once, once upon a time when I was significant to you. I know that I no longer pass like electricity through your brain cells, or send a warm sensation through your body just by mentioning some magical love words.
I know... I no longer mean anything to you...
... but you still mean something to me...
& that's where my confusing depression
comes from
(C)Noor 7/4/2009
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Oh my. Let me say that this is just simply amazing. The emotion is well and everything. I'm amazed by this; really I am. Great write, keep up the work and best wishes. (:
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Noor, this is absolutly one of your nicer pieces of work! We have all suffered through similar fates of life, and it is rare if it is only one event as such. I have had multiple over my life, and the next one is most likely right around the corner.
love ya,
Dad
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I hope the corner you talk about just stretchs into a stright walk so you don't have to feel this again.
Still, it's true that who feels these emotions never realize that others had to go through the same thing, we usually see ourselves as the only ones suffering. Humans.
Love
~Noor
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ohhhh NOOR
this is wonderfully written,,, so plainly stated and shared with the reader,,, different than anything else ive yet to see you write,,,the pain you continue to express will lighten with time, as you stated,,,, but as you also stated the emotional pain is what oozes and seems not to heal,,,, bless you and stay strong,,, *TEARING* i wish I/we could help you with these things you continue to feel,,,, but keep writing and sharing you wonderfull talent with us,,, I wish you the best ALWAYS!!! michael
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DEEPLY MOVING AND TOUCHING!!!!
I can associate with these feelings oh so well sis!!
Time though does help all bad fade away. Maybe not completely but enough so we can journey foward.'s I also feel at a kind of crossroads as to whether I want to share a relationship with another or not. Maybe one day the answer will be plain and open to me. 's
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I don't want to generalize this lovely emotional write, but you know what you need to do. So much passes us by when we cling to what was or what could have been. because there is so much joy in the moment so much life, you have experienced love and that is good, love is always good and we learn from it.
and when you are holding on to someone so tight, you can't embrace life and you may pass someone by, because you are not looking.
all is temporal and so why not live as if it is and experience life but do not cling to it because it will control your life.
well again I have to say
your ability to express your emotioNS is just amazing
God bless you my friend...
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You're right, thanks for your sweet words and your commenting, my friend.
Love
~Noor
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