You see the mask i force on everyday
but you never realise how hard it is for me
having to live with myself all the time
wishing i was everything i'll never be.
Smart, kind, beautiful, popular, and happy
all of thats just a stupid, daft dream
but you believe whats on top is true
but honestly im never really as happy as i seem.
Behind closed doors when im all alone
is when horrible thoughts swirl around my head
telling me im fat, stupid, disgusting, shameful
just makes me feel like i want to be dead.
But cause i dont have the courage to say
and no one understands what they dont see
i try to carry on like nothings wrong
and when i say im fine everyone believes me.
im sorry i know its rubbish :'(
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Y do you keep saying your stuff is rubbish?? it's packed with emotion...all of your works are.
Your stuff is really good and I'm sorry you've been feeling this way
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this is beautiful.
i can relate o so well to this.
hah no body ever really wants to know if you're well or not, they just want an "I'm fine" so they can move on w/their life. It's like nobody even cares enough to break down the walls no matter how thin or thick they may be.
keep it gurly
xoxo
-emalie
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It is honestly really good, and not anywhere near rubbish. Its sad you feel that way, and brings back memorys of when I wore that same mask in and out for a good period of time a couple years back. I honestly hope that mask you talk about goes away some day. I hope your life gets better, and I believe that voice that mocks you is lying and you are an amazing person. Also a very talented writer, with suck a gift that people would love to have. I love this poem, even though it makes me want to cry.
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It's not rubbish it's good.
T'was a good read.
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Beautifully written , thou' poignant it it is a poem
touching to the heart to many readers ...
Thank you for sharing ! Take care ,
Best wishes & hugs , Friend Easy
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its really good,i enjoyed this one i like the last 4 lines...
brilliant work keep it up tke care ly x
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