Almost Lost My Sobriety - But Didn't

Sober, sane - I had it made
a joyous day, a grand parade
but there I sat alone and afraid
thinking everything was about to fade

Wanted to walk out the door
wished I didn't care anymore
wanted pick up the pipe and roar
just wanted to be a crack whore


I was lonely and depressed
my mind was gone it was a mess
If sobriety was a test
I was losing ground I must confess


Wanted burn some chore
I stole from a grocery store
wanted sit upon a dirty floor
lighter in hand, sane no more


At the crossroads and so tired
my thoughts were lost in quagmire
Just wanted to give up and get higher
just one more - I'd be in the fire


Flick that switch - watch it burn
Getting high is what I yearn
Guess in jail I didn't really learn
not that it is anyone's concern


This time around I will not score
I won't give up and lose the war
I won't do something  I abhor
I won't go back to being hard core


Always an addict, that's just me
in jail and out - one who's never free
This time I thought - I could see
the person I soon would be


As I thought about it some more
I knew these thoughts I should ignore
silently I cried upon the floor
I didn't give in, and walk out that door


*******

I made it through another day
Didn't let drugs get in the way
Got down on my knees to pray
Sobriety is the only way


I have sobriety on my side
I hope I don't ever take that ride
Last night was hard, yes I cried
but I made it through, I did not slide.